Monday, August 3, 2009

Standing Your Ground

Ever wanted to quit something before it even started? Did you ever commit to something, but were ready to turn your tail and run because of uncertainty, anxiety, and fear? I am sitting in that spot right now. Every ounce of my being wants to return to what is comfortable; what is familiar. My head and heart are at odds with each other... the one saying, "It's okay to go back. Life is tough. God will understand. Nothing will happen. " The other pleads with it saying, "If you go back you'll never experience the huge blessings Your God has in store for you on this journey as a result of HIS faithfulness. You aren't showing that you REALLY trust HIM to do all that He has promised for you."

Which do I follow?

This type of thing has happened before, and unfortunately, I think I trusted my head, which caused me to trust in my own abilities and my own power resulting in not trusting God for provisions. What is up with that? It got me nowhere. I got scared, and instead of running to my FATHER, I ran to me, to what I thought was safety. I didn't grow the way I could have grown. Now growing is a little harder - because maybe I didn't get the lesson right the first time.

I was on facebook today, just browsing around to see what folks are up to. I came across the status of my friend's mom. All she had up was "And my God will supply all of your need according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus. Now to our God and Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen. (Phil 4: 19-20)." How right is that? Perfect! My God will supply all my need! Enough said!

1 comment:

Heather said...

Enough said... I like that!

"All (your) needs..." What a wonderful (and timely) reminder. And a good one for me, too :) B/c whenever I do the very thing you mentioned-- place trust in myself instead of in the One who saved me-- I miss out on His blessing (and who knows, perhaps my family does, too... it only makes sense-- b/c as we know, our choices *do* effect others, whether for the good or for the bad... unfortunately).

Anyhoo-- chin up camper. He who called you will equip you-- that's this season's mantra for me!

So glad you had a great weekend~ we missed you, but are certain our paths will cross soon :)

Sending much love from all,